A Word to Drop: “Blame”

 You wanna fly, you got to give up the sh*t that weighs you down.  Toni Morrison

Blaming leads to resentment. Resentment will keep me stuck in my problem. Blaming helps me avoid the solution, finding justification in remaining child-like and dependent on others for my happiness.

Enough already!

Many people have faced and are facing unjustifiable horrors. Some have shared their experiences from situations beyond their control to turn them into the fuel for the fire of change: MLK, Jr., Paul of Tarsus, Nelson Mandella, Viktor Frankl, Harriet Tubman - the list is long. All easily could have succumbed to the desperation and hopelessness of their situations, but they all found meaning in those experiences of harshness and cruelty. They found their inner will to acknowledge their individual sovereignty, and used what they’d learned to reach others.

Humanity and civility depend upon all of us finding our commonalities, and taking responsibility for where we find our own humanity and civility within. It takes growing up. It takes ceasing to blame others, and finding that the Power within is an inextinguishable flame.

Addiction is certainly not of the same scale, but it has the power to destroy nevertheless. The commonalities are there: how do I respond to whatever situation I find myself in? Where do I pass my responsibilities to others through blaming them? Does that serve my liberation? Can I be a beacon of hope for others if my light is dimmed by the shade of blame?

My choice is to be a survivor. My choice is to thrive - no permission from anyone else is necessary, and no one is allowed to control me through my own resentments. Not anymore. I choose to hear the Voice of Love.

In order to fly, I gotta give up blaming others for holding me down.



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