Free at Last

 I used to wake up at nights crying from the pain in my arms and legs. My mother would kindly assure me that they were just “growing pains”, and they were perfectly natural. She probably gave me an aspirin and tucked me back in. I just assumed that they were part of the ‘no fair’ness of childhood.

My growing pains have long been replaced by other physical challenges - nothing others don’t experience in some form. It’s just part of having physical bodies. I can accept the challenge, do what I can, and move on, or I can concentrate solely on what hurts, excluding the good all around me. I have choice when in comes to where I place my attention.

Step 5 can be like that. In Step 4, I am invited and encouraged to find the source within myself for any soul-sickness caused by my own actions or thoughts. In Step 5, I confront them by exposing them to myself, my Creator, and my sponsor. Doing so is far more effective than aspirin for these growing pains. It puts me in the position of healing rather than masking the pain. It gets to the rot beneath the surface, which affects the psychic healing of my true self - the me I’m meant to be. 

When I can welcome the humility of seeing and sharing the knowledge of my own failures, frailties, and f**k-ups, I am paving the way of freedom from them, making room for gratitude and peace within.