Entirely Ready?

“Thy will, not mine, be done”. 

How the heck do I tell which is which? In becoming willing to ask my Higher Power to take my defects of character away, I find I’ve been very adept at twisting that phrase around to ‘not thy will, but mine be done’. If I am, as I believe, a child of God, then shouldn’t my way automatically be aligned with the “thy way”?

From personal experience, I can answer that ridiculous question with a hearty NO! I am guilty of loving my defects too much. I’ve found in them the comfort of familiarity, if not peace. There is a laziness (a character defect!) in maintaining my inner status quo. That inner craving for my will to be done has robbed me of serenity in the past - why on earth would I choose to stay there?

I don’t. My choice is to be willing to be entirely ready to have the Power greater than myself remove the defects of character which have always been like my shoes of cement. I choose to soar! Those shortcomings have made it hard to live with myself - I choose to relax into the company of my ‘better angels’. Ironic, isn’t it, that to relax into this requires me to do some hard work. 

I’m doing the work every day. Sometimes I hit my marks, and sometimes I fall into the old ways, but every day, through the awareness of choice, I aim towards perfection. That’s all that’s asked. Will I achieve perfection? Hardly. That doesn’t stop me from focusing on the understanding my Creator provides when I ask, then pause to listen.