Making A.A. Your Higher Power

 When I heard the term “higher power”, I equated it with “God”. I still call it that sometimes just for the ease of the word. Time and reflection have given me a different understanding - one that is far bigger and more ethereal yet real to me than my previous limited concept.

A lot of people come into the rooms (or are scared to enter at all) with the anthropomorphic image of an angry, bearded old dude who insists on being loved, even while being completely unlovable. Uh, no thanks. Why would I want to put my trust in something so unapproachable?

“Power” is a concept, an idea. The love and acceptance one feels in the rooms is a power. The combined belief in each other is a power. This power is greater than any strength of will I can drum up on my own. Doesn’t it then follow that one can call this phenomenon a “power greater than myself”? I can hitch my metaphorical wagon to this combined strength. I can be lifted by the many who have found relief. I can be a part of that strength for others, and ask for more as I need it.

I believe we are all agents of this power. My Higher Power is all love, all support, all peace. My job is to be the prism for the Light to shine through in all it’s spectral colors. When I block that light by being focused on the perceived problem, as I was yesterday, I have the openness to receive light from one or more of God’s other agents.

In meetings or just communing with others of like mind, I am lifted by this Power greater than myself.

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