Acceptance

 It’s both amusing and tragic that we human beings have such enormous egos that we think, even in the midst of utter chaos, that we’re the ones in charge. I wavered between “ I've got this” and “someday my Prince will come”. The practical application of a Spirit of Life, personal to me yet bigger than the cosmos was one I couldn’t buy into. It’s existence? Sure. As a lifeline in my own little, tiny, but über important life whether times were hard or easy? Not so much. At least, I wasn’t willing or able to look beyond my limited imagination.

Thanks to growing up reading Dear Ann and Dear Abby, I had an early introduction to the 12 Steps. I always saw them as good, sensible guidelines, even when I thought that I wasn’t and never would be an alcoholic. I stayed in that loop of “l never thought it would happen to me”, that denial that life, whether sunny or stormy, happens to everyone, even as sun and storm hit me. It wasn’t until I experienced alcoholism in myself that I was open to receiving the Light of my Creator, shining on all of me.

I was welcomed into the rooms, and treated as one of many. I was encouraged, through the example of others, to find the expression of my Higher Power for my life. In feeling my way into what could be called a spiritual awakening, I am becoming more deeply aware of that Presence. I received a ‘download’ in my meditation this morning: God, bring my vibration into resonance with Yours.

May we all find that place of resonance as we face our challenges and celebrate our victories.