Lest We Become Complacent

 Thinking that I’ve learned all that our program can teach me is like only cleaning my house once, and proclaiming to myself “Whew! I’ll never have to do that again!”. It just doesn’t work that way.

The lessons come daily, whether I pay attention or not. The question is, am I going to tune in to their presence? Will I take positive action? Will I seek new answers or see how the understanding I’ve gained can be used in this moment? As often as I goof up and miss the mark, do I recognize that and take corrective action? Sometimes, a little time has to pass before I recognize how an old, destructive pattern has reemerged in a new way. 

Step 10 asks me to take a daily inventory. Where have I harmed another? Where did I speak when silence was called for? When did I not take action when called on? As I develop this practice, I become more aware in the moment. Sometimes, I find I can cut off the ego-driven urge to say or do what I would later regret. More often, each day is another lesson in operating from that place of union with my Creator. What did I do? What do I wish I had done? How can I be the woman of Spirit I aspire to be? 

I am grateful for the kindred souls I find in the rooms. I can share my struggles as well as my successes, and get the kind of positive feedback which encourages growth. To be complacent would be to wear blinders and earplugs - it would take me out of the Sunlight of the Spirit, right back into the darkness of no hope, no growth, no leaning into Love.