I Cannot Change the Wind

 Today’s Daily Reflection contains some real gems: “I know the difference between superstition and  spirituality” and “…if I cannot change the wind, I can adjust my sail”.

Bill is quoted from his own bitter experience as well: “…alcohol is a subtle foe.” (Big book, page 85).

I am reminded to maintain my spiritual connection. This is the key to sobriety, serenity, and usefulness. I no longer have the superstitious beliefs which clouded the ‘sunlight of the spirit’ - there is no either/or, no right way/wrong way. There is only connection with the Spirit of Life, my Creator, the I AM. The old, frustrating answer to all the questions of why and how was to “just have faith”, but that demanded belief in the unbelievable and allegiance to the unknown. For me, those words now have a deeper, truer meaning. I now have the faith that my life is part of the Great Whole, and that each life is for deepening our understanding and connection with the Divine. What am I here to learn? What keeps cropping up? What are my buttons, and why are they there? 

So, in this life of mine, I am learning to not mask my challenges by hiding behind inebriation. I am learning, every day, by maintaining contact with my Higher Power, and listening for insights. I could never do that when all I could think about was either why I hadn’t stopped drinking before I was sure to have a hangover, or when I could try again to get it ‘right’. I’m free, but that freedom has to be cherished and nurtured and maintained daily.

The wind will surely blow, but I’m better able to adjust my sail, then go with the flow. 

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